I am beginning to see my journal as the bridge between my real world experience, and my imagination of the digital world we can create where we can all connect and explore possibilities with one another. This is, at the moment, only my theatre of a new world, and even though I am imagining how I can invite others to play a part in contributing to the stories we can create, this is still a monologue. A one man show. And perhaps that is all it will ever be.
I am no more able to see where this story is going than I am able to see where my story is going. But I am looking forward, as I set the stage, to see how the story plays itself out. I can only play my part as my imagination, my ideas, and my intuition about my next initiative present themselves as I create with my experience.
And I can only play my part by trusting my imagination, my ideas, my intuition, and my ability to create with my experience. The unskilled laughter from the fifth row is none of my business. The wall I create between my experience and my imagination of the experience and the story I am creating is.
I have been writing this journal since the early nineties. I wrote a journal twice before in my life for long periods of time and questioned why I was doing it. Both times I stopped and threw my journals away. This time I am interested in learning from the experience.
I am listening to what I am thinking and feeling. I am interested in the conversation I am having with myself and how what I think and feel about my life becomes different as I become more conscious and appreciative of my experience. My primary reason for writing this journal is to stay in touch with where I am and where I am going and what I am doing and what I am going to do next. Pragmatic.
Pragmatism is a philosophy marked by the idea that the meaning of conceptions is to be sought in their practical bearings, that the function of thought is to guide action, and that truth is predominantly to be tested by the practical consequences of belief. I am a practical philosopher.
That my journal should be personal is natural. This is my story and my exploration. The parts of my journal I am publishing in the theatre, however, are not about me. These are ideas I believe are pragmatic ways of seeing and thinking about our world around an imagination of the possibilities of creating community around our common human interest, – creating a new world to create a future for our world. My journal is the spine of how the story I am creating and how the story I am imagining we can create has evolved, – and is evolving.
We cannot go back and change the beginning but we can start where we are and change the ending.